[Akai scrubs his hands roughly over his face during that pause. He curls in on himself again, torn between anger and pain and grey misery.]
...if I sign it, am I the only one paying?
[What he wants... He knows what he said and it wasn't a lie but it also isn't that simple. He wants them back but all of that is tangled up in wanting to be loved, wanting to feel like he deserves that love, wanting to stop bringing pain to himself and others, wanting to be better than this.]
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[Akai scrubs his hands roughly over his face during that pause. He curls in on himself again, torn between anger and pain and grey misery.]
...if I sign it, am I the only one paying?
[What he wants... He knows what he said and it wasn't a lie but it also isn't that simple. He wants them back but all of that is tangled up in wanting to be loved, wanting to feel like he deserves that love, wanting to stop bringing pain to himself and others, wanting to be better than this.]